just drops in an ocean

Of Avolition

very concerned about the formation
of synapse or lack thereof.
a real potential of failure
to reach full potential —
what of breath then?

a stream in back of the badlands
shelters a family of falling rocks,
one by one something
topples off.
the local children initiate one another
into adulthood by seeing how long
they can stand in underfoot
of a cliffs potential to give.

better yet: to think of oneself
as stationary and remain so permits
the whole of nature to consume you back.
like giving up a firstborn,
take the deepest breath as you feel
grip transfer away and out of your hands,

would a just god allow such sickness
or medicine to detatch the cobwebs from
the sliding glass door?
would you sit idly by as i sat idly
by if there was something poisonous coming
and i unable to run

9

small chalklines in red weather          eroded  you

must have been or would have         maintained a form

a figure for which will stand            the war on hours

her hands and calling it still.                 the time here

seems slower. a gust is upfront            and blowing

tremulously and an entity            was once here

but she hosed off the chalk                 while we were sleeping.

epitaph


the whole big to-do about leaving
must have been, to you, much similar to
driving by the same house on the way home from
work with a realtor’s sign out front
for years, since at least the kid
has been gone and then one day
the sign is down and someone is finally there
inside

the proper word for
out of here.
adios muchachos, crow’s
feet at the sides of
a face rippled by
the comeuppence of
your expiration date.


this is what snow is for.
covering up a hovering,
we know, okay, we know.
i do not even remember
what your hands felt like
so how can anyone expect
me to struggle to let go.
the proper word for alright,
it is very clear.

the ground not so tough
to break into after rain.
we’ll win the pendent
this year, coach, trust
in us. rest up
there, take a couple laps
remember to peek out
when we ask of you.
until then

might just keep finding
ways to not touch
your grave, keep trying
to find the right word
for it’s probably best
this way, keep it together.